Fraction

So I passed my FTT today, yay me! & I think I want to go to Hong Kong again. Shopping there is wicked and I would love to go to Disneyland again (without the kids this time) So at least it will be free and easy.
The boy will be going to NS on Tuesday and he’s in KL now, I feel like taking a bus there now, or flying there or something. I miss him so bad. Last time I saw him was on the 23rd of May. Thank you, that’s like what, FOREVER. And we haven’t really been talking much considering the fact that we’ve been taking holidays on alternate weeks. Foolish of us.
Maybe this is supposed to get me used to how it’ll be when he books into that stupid camp. Gee.

I can do this.

Work’s a killer. I’m so exhausted from all the shit that’s happening, plus I have my menses and people at work are getting annoyed with me whenever I get irritated at them. Like hello! Leave me alone, I’m not being rude to the children or pushing them around right. F. Thank God I have to wrap books tomorrow afternoon, that way NOONE CAN TOUCH ME. I’m just gonna sit in Room 1 from 2 to 530 and wrap books.

Charles, please come back soon. I need you back here. It’s been 2 weeks and counting my love.
*fingers crossed that you text me tomorrow*

I am honestly still feeling inspired to have my wardrobe revamped! Where might you ask does my inspiration come from? Think, Kourtney Kardashian, Kimora Lee Simmons, Jessica Szohr. Three completely different individuals but I see a little bit of me in each of them, in terms of dressing and the clothes I want to wear, the way I want my hair done and the way I want to carry myself. Kourtney’s hair and style is to die for, Kimora is fabulous, and Jessica always looks great, with her curly hair and scarf in her hair, totally changes the look. I feel like I need to go shopping right now. Even if I’ve gotta go on my own, I will do it. But, I need to wait for my best friend cause she has exams. -if there’re no more sales babe, I’m gonna cut you!- I want to wear my jeggings tomorrow. But I can’t wear jeans to work. Dad wants to have dinner tomorrow at Serangoon. HUH WHAT?! Indian ke pe. I really want to go shopping! Should I just go on my own after work? :s So tempting!!!!

Okay, all of a sudden, I have this urge to have a major wardrobe change. I’m inspired to do alot of things. Maybe I fell ill at the right time. So that I can stay home and get started. First thing that I need to do, is clear my cupboard -even though I kinda just did before hanging everything up- nevertheless, I still need to throw away/give away some stuff. I’m inspired to dress better, be more adventurous with my dressing. I also need to try dealing with my hair and stop straightening it, maybe just accepting my hair for what it is? -we’ll see! I just really need to revamp my wardrobe. Chanel was right when she said I dress boring. I should really “up” my sense of fashion, if I do have even a tiny pinch of it. I’m inspired. I need to start now, it’s 2.38 in the morning. OMG. I just want to jump out of bed and get started. SHIT. Should I? Or set my alarm and get started bright and early tomorrow/later? SHITTTTTTTT. I want to start now. And, I want jeggings, black stone wash, black, any colour, ALL the colours! -provided they look nice on me and it’s necessary (I’m not an impulsive buyer) And more sandals and shoes -pumps especially. And I’ve gotta learn to stop this “I LIKE THIS CUTTING, BUYS ONE OF EVERY COLOUR” thing. That’s so old school giordano lycra tee and polo tee days kinda thing to do. Ah shit. I need to do something now. Okay, I’m going crazy. I’m gonna shut up right about now!

I miss you baby boy, please come meet me soon. :(